Learning to Let Go… a Little at a Time

I happened to be driving by my son’s daycare this morning and decided to pop in to check on him. He hadn’t been feeling well the past few days and I wanted to ask his teacher how he was doing. I was glad to hear his teacher report that he was having a great day.

You would think that I would have walked out of the daycare feeling good, knowing that he was happy. Instead, I walked out with tears in my eyes.

You see, after talking with his teacher, I decided to watch him for a while through the classroom window. As I watched him play, the fact that he is no longer a baby and is growing up became very real. There he was… my baby… making friends, participating with the class, and learning new things – all without my help.

As a newborn and infant, he depended on us for everything. There was nothing, really, that he could do on his own – eating, sleeping, dressing, entertainment, you name it.

With each passing day, he’s becoming more and more independent. He still very much needs us, but in a different way.

Nolan

Now, I fully realize that this is what is supposed to happen. He is supposed to learn and grow, and become his own person. This doesn’t make it easy, however. Time just moves way too fast.

The feelings I felt this morning were a good reminder that I need to treasure each and every moment with him, even moments of frustration.

For example…

Meal time can be complete struggle – his tastes vary from day to day and he usually leaves behind a big mess for us to clean up. –> Some day, he will be making his own meals.

Bedtime doesn’t always go smoothly and he sometimes needs extra time and attention, all while I’m beyond ready for a break and alone time. –> Some day, he won’t ask for “one more book” and will go to bed without any help from me.

Sometimes, all I want is a little peace and quiet. –> Some day, my house will be exactly that… quiet.

Part of the joy in being a parent is watching your children grow to become amazing adults with dreams and ambitions of their own, knowing that you helped form them into the people they have become.

I’m realizing that this process is bittersweet {especially now, during high school and college graduation season}. As you watch your children grow, you also need to learn how to let go a little bit with each passing day.

Comments

  1. Aaaaand I’m crying at 7am lol… I’m not even pregnant 😉

    Truth and wisdom, girl ♡
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    • Haha, sorry lady! 🙂 Believe me, I cried while writing it! These little people sure have power over our emotions – every single kind of emotion, too!

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